Thursday, March 29, 2012

Half Way

This week is a big one!

Im 20 weeks and now theoretically facing the second half of this pregnancy.

I feel halfway too. I go back and forth between equal parts thrilled I've come this far and terrified that I'm already half way to an outside baby.

Folks, an OUTSIDE BABY. Holy spitballs. I'm having a kid. Not just a nameless future kid. But in a finite,measurable, number of weeks I will have a child. A female child. Whoa Nelly, I'm having a daughter.

Now I know that was the goal, but it's taken so long that I suppose it's just starting to sink in.

I will be responsible for raising a productive member of society. No pressure! Where's my paper bag??

I'm feeling tons better, rarely ever nauseous. I feel like I have most my energy back, but when I'm tired, its over. Going out on a Friday is practically an impossible feat.

These last couple weeks have been stressful. Nothing baby related, thank God, but trying to sell our rental house, work is insane, our house is a disaster, coaching volleyball (I am a sucker who can't say no to 11 year old girls - foreshadowing much?).... I've been feeling tapped. Here's my question to you, how do you relax? Say having a beer and I might growl at you! ;) Should I squeeze in yoga, are there breathing exercises I should do? What's your trick?

I can tell you what doesn't work. Crying in your bosses office. Tried that already! Yeah.... she was amazing and sympathetic, but that's humiliating. +1 major professional career points for Sarah.

C'mon second half!

P.S. board and batten is going up this weekend! Woooot

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  1. LOL, I had the same realization. After a long time of TTC, you're just so focused on that damn BFP that you (or I!) kind of forget there's a real live baby at the end of it all. :) You'll do great!

    The stress is one of the things that Hypnobabies really helped me with. I'd listen to 1-2 of my 30 minute tracks every day, and it was soothing, relaxing, quieting ME time. Good luck finding something that relaxes YOU. I think yoga would be a great idea!

  2. Congrats on reaching this milestone!

  3. Yay for 2nd half of pregnancy, may it go as quickly as the 1st half! And HAHAHA to "outside baby", just love the term you chose!

  4. Just wait until you look at that outside baby and go "Holy Crap! She's mine!!!" My son is 10 weeks and I do it every day. After 5 years TTC RPL really messed up my way of thinking and had me convinced that I would never be able to carry to term. I am so happy that I get to stare at him every night thinking how lucky I am. I hope the next 20 weeks goes smoothly for you.

  5. I'm 19 weeks with twins and I had to laugh when I read your post today, because I was having the same thoughts last night, haha. I can't believe that I'm starting to feel panicked about something that I've wanted for soooo long. I wouldn't sweat it too much, I think you're going to be a wonderful mom! In fact I think all moms, whether they've struggled with infertility or not, feel some amount of anxiety as their due date draws nearer.

  6. Congratulations on making it half way. You'll be an awesome mumma to a 'real' baby :)

  7. Congratulations on making it to the halfway point! :-)

  8. A great milestone- enjoy every moment.