Tuesday, February 14, 2012

I'm Cranky and Sad.

I feel guilty even talking about not being all rainbows and unicorn farts during this pregnancy. My mind keeps going to this place of, "if I complain, people may think I don't appreciate this miracle I have." But, dammit, I hurt. I'm still coughing. And now I'm either getting a cold or my allergies have come early and in full force.

I had my second appointment with the chiropractor today. He gave me a good work over, adjusted my ribs again, as well as my neck and hips. Unfortunately, he said that he may not be able to give me a permanent fix until after I give birth. Are you kidding me!?

During pregnancy our bodies produce the hormone Relaxin. Its purpose is to help loosen your joints and ligaments to give birth. Makes sense. Unfortunately it isn't exclusive to your pelvis. So, while we work to put everything back, my body is fighting against it and is preferring to stay all 'loosey goosey'. Awwwweeeesome. I have one more visit tomorrow and then I'll probably see him as needed until I deliver. Just as I feel uncomfortable.

I got home, relaxed on the couch, and then I coughed - POP.


I cried.

I'm tired. I'm tired of coughing, and now sneezing. I'm tired of this pain. Of not being able to take a deep breath. Even my crying hurt my ribs too bad. It has subsided a bit, but damn. I'm really frustrated! How can my bones rest and get better when I'm jostling them around every 5 minutes?

I'm supposed to be starting to feel better. My nausea has all but subsided (I have my days...) and I'm getting to where I should be feeling good! I feel like I'm missing out. I cannot relax or enjoy this time because I'm mopey, sick, and in pain. Not to mention today is Valentines Day! How fun is a crying wife? Add guilt to my list of things to mope about.

I'm confident things will get better. I'm confident in my chiropractor. What I'm not confident in is the time frame with which this will all take place.

I'm a woman on the edge.


  1. SO, so sorry to hear that you're feeling so shitty. :(

  2. So sorry you're feeling like crap. I've come down with a terrible cough and even without the rib out of place I'm miserable, so I can only imagine how you're feeling.

    I hope you feel better soon!

  3. Oh girl, we should hang out together. I have been absolutely miserable for the past month or so, with all my sickness and scary news...and I too hate complaining because I dont want anyone to think I dont appreciate this miracle! So I know how you feel. Can't we catch a freakin break!? I know it will all be worth it in the end. But things have not been pleasant. Hang in there. You are not alone :)

  4. I'm sorry you are feeling so bad! I can imagine how hard it would be to remain comfortable in that situation. We struggle to get pregnant and just want to feel decent and enjoy what time we have...and crap happens.
    I hope things resolve themselves very soon. Sorry hon.