A close friend of Jeremy's and his wife have been trying for about 6 months. They've suffered through two early miscarriages/chemical pregnancies. She is now 6 weeks pregnant.
I am so happy for our friends. Happy and hopeful that they will get a full term healthy and happy baby.
I'm also struggling. I know it is so so so wrong to be jealous that they've been pregnant 3 times in 6 months.
I am grateful that I was working late when J had dinner with them to get the good news.
Working through these conflicts is a tricky, tricky, beast. Thrilled for them, jealous and sad for me. Crazy with a side of nutso, welcome to my world.
Meanwhile I will just fester in my wave of crazy while I pray for their babies health and for our future. Oh, and have a cocktail with my friends because it's Friday and we're headed out for the weekend. Yes, that will definitely help!
TGIF my dear friends.