I realized something today. Each month, at the end of my 2WW, I avoid my blog. I don't post as much, I barely visit check in, nada - zilch. I'm not certain exactly why that is.
Part of me thinks that I don't want to beat a dead horse (graphic -sorry). Here we are AGAIN, talking about trying not to get my hopes up AGAIN, while I have feelings of doubt AGAIN. I mean really... 30 months later.... BLAH
Another part of me thinks that if I don't talk about it, maybe I won't jinx it. Like I do every other month.
Both are silly. Ridiculous even. Preposterous.
Never the less, here we are! Late and avoiding my blog. Again.
Why exactly do you all come back here? ;)
Why do I come back here? Because you're hawt.
ReplyDeleteHaha, so normal.
ReplyDeleteI used to do the same thing (when I wasn't on birth control!), for the same reasons.
Part of me didn't want to talk about it, just get through it and move on. Maybe think of some other topics to spew about during your 2ww. God knows, we all have other non-baby related things going on. Even when it seems we can think of nothing else.
Hang in there!
MissC
I come back because I know one day you're going to have fabulous news for us! And because you sent me the nicest card when you sent me my bracelet, and you remind me of me. I wish there was a way that we could just fast forward through these endless days of waiting, but you were meant to be a mother and it will happen for you one day. Until then, I'm stickin' around. . . can't wait to hear about your trip!
ReplyDeleteYou know what though - we ALL get that feeling of trepidation of ANOTHER 2ww, ANOTHER BFN, ANOTHER lost cycle...etc.etc.
ReplyDeleteJust remember that one of these days you'll be posting in shock b/c you were wrong. It wasn't a wasted cycle. The 2ww is over. And you are pregnant.
Hang in there, and don't ever worry that you're being redundant. We're all stuck in redundancy for awhile in this journey...that's why it's IF hell.
Because I like you!
ReplyDeleteThe end of the 2ww sucks. That's all there is to it.