A dear friend of mine Krista wrote in her blog today something that struck a cord with me. She said, "I show more emotion HERE and to those who know me online then to those who only know me IRL." I have had this thought a few times and wanted to chat about it for a second.
My blog is all over the place. I'm motivated and actually living my life one day, and the next I'm crush and my heart aches from it all. I get that, but that is just the way it is around these IF parts. I just have to try and deal with all of the ups and downs. Part of the way I do that is my wordvomit here. Because IRL? Yeah, no dice. About 10 people, include J and I, know what is happening. So all of my conversations and silly things like Facebook status updates are about things that, in comparison, mean nothing to me. Most times I can't even think of what I possibly could say, so I don't.
I'm sure Krista and I aren't alone in this. How do I fix it? When do I bare all? Or do I ever? If they ask, do I tell? Or do I avoid it and change the subject? I'm sure my friends that know ask themselves that same question, Do I ask her about it? Just add those to the list of questions I don't have answers for.
If you are like me, you tell a watered down version. You make your face impassive and spew half truths void of emotion because you know they don't understand and you don't want to put yourself out there and be open to the stupid comments that regurgitate out of their mouths. But that's just me. LOL
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