Friday, March 18, 2011

I'm Scared.

I am still waiting. No news is good news, right?

I am scared to test tomorrow morning. Scared it will be negative. Scared it will be positive. Scared my period will start before I even have the chance. Scared it will be positive and it will be a mean lie. Scared that the next time I wipe it will be over. And mostly, I'm scared I've let my hopes creep up to far and that my heart will be broken, again.

I'm sorry that I don't have more substance than this today. It's all I can muster while I hold my breath for the next 24 hours.

8 comments:

  1. Yes. No news is good news. I'm praying that this may be "the" time for you. All day long! I hope we hear good news tomorrow, but either way, you have made so much progress that you should just feel good about "normal" cycles and the weight loss you've had so far - proof that it can be done and you're headed in the right direction!

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  2. Hang in there!! Praying praying praying for you!!!!!!!

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  3. Will be thinking of you tomorrow!

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  4. crossing all appendages for you over here.

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  5. Boy do I know the feeling. All you can do is wait or test.
    Stay strong!

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  6. I am so sorry you are full of fear. Who would have thought procreating was going to be so difficult, huh? (hugs)

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  7. Hoping this is it for you! Try to relax. Eat chocolate!

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