My Charting Failure

If you have clicked the link to view my chart, you'll know that I haven't been doing it. I took a month off and that month sort of became a few months. It started with the new meds and the new puppy. I was up so much during the night I would have failed miserably. Now, on most nights, I am sleeping through the night. I no longer have that excuse to cling to and I still cannot fathom going back to charting right now.

I think I have abandoned it for a couple of reasons. Number one being that my meds change my chart. The minute I start progesterone, my temps increase. FF will never give me solid cross hairs because of the medication. Number two being, I was over analysing all of these symptoms and they had already happened. There isn't anything I can do to change them, so why spend so much time looking at them. What I needed to focus on was something that was going to tell me what was coming (midcycle checks, OPKs). Then I could prepare accordingly.

I really enjoyed charting in the beginning. I felt like it gave me something tangible to view. Now, honestly I cannot go back. The thought of it is suffocating to me. I don't want to be bound to another thing I have to do each day. Between the meds, the vitamins, the sex, the doctors appointments, the shots, etc... Something had to give and that something was my dear Fertility Frienemy.

Maybe someday I will go back. It does give me a good place to record CDs, positive OPKs, and symptoms, even if I don't record temps. But, for now, that BBT is staying in my nightstand where it belongs.