Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Holy $#|+.

Monday morning I had written up a post. I was excited to get it out, but I wanted it to be right. So I set it aside until later in the day when I’d have more time. It was my ‘coming out of the closet’ post. You get to meet me! You can find that post here.

The day progressed on and I didn’t get the time to finish up. What I did get the time for, is this:





That’s right.

BPF.

That is when I hollered for J, hyperventilated, cried, we hugged, I cried, called a dear dear friend, cried (catching on to the theme here??) – wash, rinse, repeat.

Needless to say we were (still are!) stunned. I am getting a blood draw after work today (will this day never end??), so we are still, and will be for awhile I’m sure, in the ‘cautiously optimistic’ phase.

I’m sorry to drop this bomb and run, but I will leave you with a few thoughts in bullet form (complete sentences aren’t really on my plate today).

I cannot tell if my ‘yuckiness’ is Metformin, nerves, or baby (AHHH!) related
This is an excellent conundrum
My friends are amazing. To have that close circle to confide in yesterday was something I will never forget in my life. To have people understand the complex emotions that goes into that moment. Priceless.
I’ve been living the past 10ish (waking) hours as a completely surely out-of-body experience
We have not told our families, we're waiting for the blood test to confirm. That means you kids are LUCKY!
We won't start telling the general population until about 12 weeks. We'll see.
I honestly wasn’t sure this would ever happen
I’m scared
I’m deliriously, albeit cautiously, overjoyed

We are living one moment at a time.

For this moment, I’m pregnant.

Wow.



Thank you in advance for your positive thoughts and prayers. I understand the conflicting sting this brings and I want you to know I appreciate your prayers and love. Love and hugs to each of you.

23 comments:

  1. Holy cow!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay!!!! Congrats on your BFP!!! :)

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  2. OMG! I am soooo excited for you!!!! I can't say it enough- Congrats!!! I also wanted to say that I appreciate your end note. :-) {hugs}

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  3. What wonderful news! This made my day! Congrats!!!!!

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  4. So very awesome! I remember seeing you tweet saying you were hoping AF would hold out or never come at all and I so was hoping it just wouldn't show up! So glad to see this news. A big congratulations to you, I'm so grateful to hear the news! Wishing you the best!

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  5. AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I just yelled out loud, "Holy shit, she's pregnant!!" and my husband said, "who?"

    Um...nobody you know honey. :)

    SOOOOo incredibly excited for you!!! Praying for great beta numbers for you!!!

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  6. Omg, omg, omg!!!! Congratulations, girlie!!!!! Can't wait to hear about that beta!

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  7. My heart literally just jumped out of my chest!!! I have been following your blog forever and am so excited for you two. I am praying for a happy and healthy nine months and a beautiful baby in your arms soon!

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  8. YAY!!! I totally knew it!!! Congrats!!! :)

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  9. yay, congrats!!! how exciting! :) so happy for you!

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  10. Congratulations!! How exciting! Can't wait to hear the numbers!

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  11. Woooohoooo! Congrats!!!!! So happy for you!

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  12. OMG! Congrats! This is amazing news!!! :)

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  13. Congratulations!! SO happy for you!!

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  14. Holy Shit!!!! OMG!!! I am SO SO happy right now. Crazy happy! You do realize our babies will be born super close right? This is such great news and I can't wait to hear the test results! Thank you for telling us!

    MissC

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  15. I'm thrilled every time I can move someone from my "infertility" folder to my "pregnant" folder in my google reader! I'm SO happy for you!

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  16. What a surprise! Congrats!!

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  17. YESSSSSSSSSS!!! I have been waiting for this from you for such a long time!!! So HAPPY for you!!!! This made my day :-)

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  18. AHHHHHHH!!!!!! I have never been so happy for a BFP announcement, EVER! Congratulations!!!! Yay!!!!!! I will be praying for you guys and your little one!

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  19. OMG - Congrats! This is so exciting!

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