Infertility doesn't control me anymore.

Once upon a time I wrote an entry talking about the anonymity of my blog.

On a number of occasions I have called this blog my safe place. That the anonymous factor helped me bare all. Except for baring who I really am. And can I really bare all if I'm making exceptions? I've been worried about picking back up with the appointments and losing who I am again. How can I lose myself around here when 'myself' hasn't even been a part of this blog?

I don't know where I came across this saying and normally I like giving credit where credit is due, but this time we'll just have to appreciate it for what it is. I've been saving it for this occasion:

By not putting my face on our infertility struggle, I'm allowing it to continue to control me. I need to own that this is part of my life in order to take the control back.

In my case I need to own that this is part of my life in order to not lose the control again.

There are a number of brave women out there to talk about all the details and are brave enough to do that with a face. You've been an inspiration to me. Whatever conscious/subconscious part of our struggle with infertility that kept me in hiding, has to go. I believe that this is a critical part of the process for me.

Without further ado...

Hi, my name is Sarah and that handsome fella is my husband Jeremy.