Saturday, July 23, 2011

It's Over.

I finally broke down and called. Of course two minutes later I get an email saying my results are available.

My beta was 8406.

It is over for us.

I am in a bit of a state of shock. I appreciate your prayers. I am trying to find solace in the fact that we got pregnant at all. We can do it. But for now I'm devastated. To go from the highest of highs to this is... well I can't quite describe it.

Now I get to call my mom. Disappointing your parents never stops hurting.
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  1. AnonymousJuly 23, 2011 at 12:34 PM

    Oh honey, I'm so incredibly sorry. This sucks. I hate that you say this will "disappoint" your mother. Please don't think that way. Unfortunately I have a bit too much experience with this, so please hear me when I say that you need to take good care of yourself, and give yourself time to grieve. My heart goes out to you. I am here if you need me.

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  2. Mrs.JoeJuly 23, 2011 at 12:49 PM

    I'm so sorry. I have been praying for you this whole time. Thinking of you.

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  3. RachJuly 23, 2011 at 12:56 PM

    I'm so sad to hear this news. Will be thinking of you.

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  4. EsperanzaJuly 23, 2011 at 1:07 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a pregnancy, especially one that has been hoped for for so long is incredibly difficult. Keeping you and your husband in my heart and in my thoughts.

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  5. LolaJuly 23, 2011 at 1:08 PM

    I'm so sorry to hear this. I can't imagine what you're going thru :'( we are all here for you.

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  6. SamanthaJuly 23, 2011 at 1:10 PM

    Oh dear, I was dreading seeing a post today like this...I am so incredibly sorry! Having had three miscarriages myself, I know how difficult this can be. Grieve and rest. Thinking of you!

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  7. SarahJuly 23, 2011 at 1:17 PM

    Oh my God, I am sooo so sorry :( I can't believe it. :( Thinking of you :(

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  8. Nicolasa @ {My}PerspectiveJuly 23, 2011 at 2:27 PM

    Oh no. I can't even tell you how sorry I am to read this news. My heart is aching for you. ((hugs))

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  9. jjiraffeJuly 23, 2011 at 5:00 PM

    Here from Mommy Odyssey. I am so, so sorry to hear about this. Thinking of you.

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  10. AnonymousJuly 23, 2011 at 5:17 PM

    Here from ICLW, and I'm so sorry to find this. I hope that your fellow bloggers (me included) can help to bring you some healing in the coming days. (Hugs)

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  11. SusanJuly 23, 2011 at 5:22 PM

    You know I love you so I'll lay it out here...

    You have not disappointed ANYONE. I would say you did if you spent the last few weeks engaging in reckless behavior. But you cared, loved and did everything you possibly could for Sprout. I, obviously, don't know why things happen the way they do or what will come out of it, but I do know that you are an amazing person and I am here for you no matter what at absolutely any time. I love you so incredibly much.

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  12. AnonymousJuly 23, 2011 at 5:58 PM

    I'm so, so sorry, Sarah. You guys have been in my prayers, and I will continue to pray for you both. Some things in life make no sense, and this is one of those things. I'm just so sorry.

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  13. Mrs. SJuly 23, 2011 at 6:15 PM

    Thank you ladies. Your kind words mean a great deal to me. I do want to clarify that I would never think my mom would be disappointed in me, just that she would be disappointed as we were. Hearing your parents cry never gets easier.

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  14. MeganJuly 23, 2011 at 6:41 PM

    Crap! I'm so very sorry!! ((((HUGS))))

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  15. Momma BeeJuly 23, 2011 at 6:42 PM

    I'm so sorry! You will be in my thoughts and prayers!

    Sending you TONS of hugs! (and tissues..)

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  16. One and Done?July 23, 2011 at 7:25 PM

    I'm so sorry! Definitely in my thoughts and prayers. :(

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  17. BrokenBirdsBeesJuly 23, 2011 at 7:31 PM

    Sorry. :(

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  18. KrystalJuly 23, 2011 at 8:11 PM

    I'm so sorry to hear this. I've been thinking about what to say for the last few hours, and I still cannot come to terms. As someone who has been there, I understand wholeheartedly how the pain feels and if you need someone to talk to, I'm here. eatsnickers (at) aol (dot) com

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  19. ADSchillJuly 23, 2011 at 11:38 PM

    I am so so sorry! God, I wish I could say something to make it all better, but I know that is impossible. Just know that we are here with you and are pulling for you and your hubby.
    I just know that someday (hopefully sooner than later) you will get your wish.
    Here for you, MissC

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  20. AnonymousJuly 24, 2011 at 6:42 AM

    my thoughts and prayers are with you. hang onto each other and the hope in your heart.

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  21. JosJuly 24, 2011 at 8:30 AM

    Oh my gosh, Sarah, just catching up on my reader and I am SOOOO sorry to read this. :( I can't imagine how you guys are feeling right now.

    You did NOT disappoint your parents. I'm sure they are as devastated as you that this is happening, but it is NOT your fault and you (and your body) are NOT a disappointment. Remember that.

    ((HUGS))

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  22. JoJuly 24, 2011 at 9:22 AM

    I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. After struggling for so long to get pregnant, it seems only fair that pregnancy should be easy and carefree. I am so sorry that this isn't the case for you.

    Hugs,
    Jo

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  23. Do I Have to Be a D.I.N.K.?July 24, 2011 at 9:42 AM

    I am truly sorry to hear this. It make me so sad. You are in my thoughts.

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  24. NatalieJuly 26, 2011 at 5:24 PM

    Oh shit. I'm catching up from days ago. Fuck. I'm so sorry.

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  25. ChonJuly 27, 2011 at 10:54 PM

    I am really sorry to hear that - over from MO's tweet to send support. It really sucks.

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